It’s all so clear to me now, and I think it’s funny that it took a Kurt Vonnegut essay to make it so. I know what my problem is — I’m done with people. I’m tired to death of them. I’m tired of trying to understand what motivates people to do whatever it is they so choose. My only form of respite lies within these two mediums: music and the internet.
Music expresses that which the soul cannot with words. I’ve forgotten who said that, and honestly don’t really care. The explanation is enough for me. And for those of you who are not yet aware, the new Radiohead is phenomenal. Go get it!
The internet is my home, and has been since the mid 90’s. I see it as a medium without fault! Sure, there are those of us still stuck in the adolescent stages of this cyberworld. Those of us who swim in porn, trolling, and Myspace (hehe), but on the flipside of that coin, there lies The not so Silent Majority: the bloggers, the journalists, the musicians, the armchair psychiatrists, psychologists, and philosophers. Communication is key for me, and I’ve enjoyed this medium just for that. The ability to speak with people across the globe about the most mundane, or the craziest topics, holds a special place in my heart to the point where I pity those who came before this age of ours. And still, the medium is growing.
From pics of Britney Spears’ snatch, to footage of action in Iraq (from the very soldiers fighting the war), all of it is at our fingertips to browse, to contemplate over, to pick a side — or not. And friendships! Some of my oldest friends I’ve met on the internet, and for quite a few, I’ve only ever known them online. There are exceptions; I have met many people in RL after meeting online, and because this medium works as a buffer to exclude the jerkoffs of the world, I’ve maintained these friendships with these people for years….and still counting. Ask toodarkmark
…he’ll tell ya.
It’s the jerkoffs in RL, who feel this constant need to prove themselves to be superior to everyone else, that drive me to the point of homicidal fantasies. And while that’s not the best way to put this down, it’s closer to the truth than not.
In closing, contribute to this here humble attempt at a blog, and join my Mental Circle of friends and acquaintances. All with half a mind are welcome!