The Author

Revelation is a recurrent theme in my life. The urge to uncover or hold up to scrutiny the inner vision, feelings and thoughts of myself or others is marked. Perhaps some see me as an exhibitionist, but not in any superficial sense of the word. By revealing so much of myself, I can effect anything from mild shock to disturbance in others, sometimes even an awakening.

I have a way of sounding a common chord in my colleagues, family and friends. I may be considered more than a little strange, yet my fanciful thoughts and endeavors rarely miss the mark. My link to the subconscious is very strong. Therefore I have the ability to understand many of the perverse twists and turns that the human mind can take. Little that is bizarre or unusual surprises me, since I have encountered much of it before in myself.

No matter what my career, I manifest a desire to simplify through exposure, and because I am so intent on revealing my own inner process, I see nothing wrong in revealing those of others as well. Unfortunately, I am sometimes accused of meddling in other people’s affairs, getting involved in matters that don’t really concern me. It’s an occasional flaw.

I have quite a secretive private life, as it is more often my ideas and opinions which I exhibit rather than my dirty laundry. Thus what I reveal, in general, is not so much what I do but what I think — often in regard to the world of dreams, fantasies and human emotions.

I am rather difficult to live with. I demand a great deal of understanding and acceptance from my partners. I may be known by some as a dreamer, by my friends as unrealistic, and by my business partners as less than reliable. Indeed, I am most often misunderstood by others. Yet, in a competitive world, I can actually function very well, and become a successful driving force in my business or social sphere. My highly demanding subconscious drives, however, will always place a strain on my “straight” job responsibilities or image. I suppose I’d be happiest if I could integrate my fantasy life in the commercial world, without sacrificing my integrity.

Although I get occasionally uptight and even dictatorial, for the most part, I have strongly developed human instincts. I’m bewildered when confronted by a stronger personality, particularly if I’m taken to task by the quality of my work. This confusion can later give way to anger and resentment, sometimes resulting in withdrawal into my shell.

I must overcome the tendency to feel self-pity when I feel misunderstood.

Requests for appearances: aim – zmahathera

Love under Will,
Mhz

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